The last few weeks have been challenging in ways I have not experienced before. I’ve journeyed through challenging times in the past, but they were different than the ones I am experiencing right now. This really shouldn’t be surprising to me. Life is full of new adventures – which is an optimistic way of saying hardships. What I am experiencing now, although different, is not the worst road that I have traveled.
But these circumstances caught me off guard.
I was prepared for “2020” difficulties. We’ve all had them. I’ve walked with others as they’ve navigated various hardships. I’ve learned new skills, completed new tasks, found new rhythms – and when those were disrupted, readjusted. But I wasn’t prepared for the personal health crises that Ed and I would experience at the same time.
We have been talking in our gatherings a great deal about the truth that God is our strength, that we are weak and He is strong. Two Sundays ago we remembered that we are enough because God is enough. We will disappoint others, but God will not disappoint. Our hope, our trust, is in God alone, not in our own strength. Today I am challenged: Do I really believe what I preach?
Yes! I believe it. I am living it.
The breath prayer for yesterday was “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God: have mercy on me, a sinner.” Yesterday, that prayer was about all I could muster. I needed God to carry me. I knew that I was too weak to “hold up” or to “stay strong”, so I allowed myself to find peace in my weakness knowing that God was my strength – even if I couldn’t feel it in the moment!
The breath prayer for this morning is “Let Your wondrous love be upon us: for in You alone have we put our trust.”
This morning I can pray this. This morning I feel the confidence that was missing yesterday. Today I know that God who has always walked with me through all that I have faced in the past will walk with me again – is walking with me now! It is God alone in whom I trust.
Today I have confidence. Tomorrow I may find myself weak again – but in my weakness I will find that God is strong. He is strong enough for both of us.
May you find that He is enough – and that because He is enough, you, my friend are also enough. When we are weak, He is strong!